So this is my first time writing a blog, so I don’t know if it will be any good. Why you want to read this I don’t know. But I need to vent so here goes.
When I was in primary school I was the “over achiever”. You know the kid who was smart and “above average” so to speak. And I don’t think I was smarter than anyone else, I was just really curious by nature, still am I guess. I liked learning.
Then we got to secondary school and there was deeper, more interesting learning and it was hard but I liked being challenged. I had high grades all round.
But then it got to GCSEs and things got po hard, and too stressful, and before I know it I’m sobbing in front of a teacher because he asked me if everything was ok. Needless to say it wasn’t ok.
I was stressed and overwhelmed with the work load. All I wanted to do was ask for an extension to hand in my homework, I didn’t expect to break down like that.
i think school just sucked the fun out of learning, and I didn’t feel like myself again. I lost my curiosity, my eagerness to learn.
schools over now, thankfully. I chose college over sixth form, hoping that it would be less stressful. I made the right choice, but it’s still stessful. But it better, I’m starting to fell like myself again.
But school left it’s mark. I’m quieter, more awkward, get stressed easier, lack motivation.
But I’m slowly discovering how to cope, how to improve. I’m learning the value of self care. And there are still days when I’m strewed and overwhelmed and hate myself. But they get less frequent with time.
so if you are in school and feel like I felt, it will get better. Maybe not immediately but eventually. Take care of your body and your mind, make choices that will benefit you and your wellbeing, not choices that others want you to make.
For all you wildflowers our there who feel you’ve lost your curiosity and your wildflower ways, there’s light at the end of the tunnel. Power through the bad days and cherish the good.