My journey started when I was about 6 years old, I’m 15 now. My parents got divorced when I was 6 and thats when all my depression started I never got to see my dad anymore yet did i want to, he was cheating on my mom for months then we finally went away on a vaycay without him and when we came back he said he needed to “talk to my mom” about something and we all had no idea what was going on. i had 3 older siblings at the time and he raised them all because their dad walked out on them, i now i have five siblings and 1 more on its way! we moved into a new house when i was about 8 after they got divorced and my mom became an alcoholic and would go to the bar straight from when she would drop me off to pick me up from school n the day came where she picked me up n she was drunk. I watched my own mom get arrested in the eyes of a little girl, i watched her get put in the back of the cop car knowing this was the last of i, i got put under my dads care for 6months until i was allowed to see her again. when i was 11 my sister got diagnosed with Osteosarcoma bone cancer which spread into her lungs n led her with many major sugerys (even hip surgery) she had a 2 year battle. On december21, 2014 she passed away, she was a christmas angel. keep in mind through all of this i was still not seeing my dad a lot. i got into drugs at age of 13 and am still suffering from Addiction, Anorexia Nervosa and Depression. I was hanging out with the wrong friend groups n messed up my life now i feel like i wanna die n i hate myself because i blame myself for everything Please help!