Hi everybody. I have just joined this website and I wanted to talk about what is going on right now in my life. I have really severe OCD and depression and I am struggling everyday. I have been in therapy for years for anxiety and I got diagnosed with OCD later on. I just can’t seem to have enough determination to beat it. It is so hard! Right now I am seeing a therapist that I have been seeing for a couple of months now and I still feel like progress is slow. My biggest problem right now is contamination and scrupulosity. I just don’t know what to do with myself because I am so all over the place with my emotions and everything. One minute I am motivated to beat my OCD and the next I just want to throw in the towel. I don’t know if any of you know what scrupulosity is, but if so, do you have any tips on how to handle it and move on from it? I am anxious about typing on here because I have social anxiety as well and I have never done this before. What I really want in life is to get better and to be truly happy with doing something I love to do  the world. I have graduated high school and have done some college courses, but I have been on and off with the college thing because of my OCD and anxiety being so bad. I want to try to start back up at school by doing one course and  then go from there. Right now I am pretty isolated being at home and even though I do get out a couple of times a week and get some job interviews every so often, I want to be around people more.