So long story short, we have been married almost a year. During this year we had A LOT of trauma. One thing in particular… A tree fell on our house after we moved in together, while we were inside and took everything from us, right after Christmas. The kids lost everything. We lost everything. We scrambled to find a new place, and finally found one and rebuilt our life even better than it was before. We fight constantly. Almost every single day. He blames me and my thoughts. Says he doesn’t care how i feel anymore. Says I can “get over” whatever my issue is. Whenever he is wrong, he NEVER apologizes. I feel like I have to beg for the basics. If I do something wrong and make him mad, he will deny me any form of intimacy. He will stonewall me and not say a word. This is my first and hopefully only marriage, I am his fifth. I am 30 and he is 46 (in January)…… My marriage is failing. It is falling apart around me. I am starting to not care and starting to debate giving up and just starting over. I want a Christ like marriage…. I want normal, good days. I don’t want to feel alone, when I have a partner….. BUT here I am once again, feeling alone….. and very tired.