My name is Carrie. I have been suffering from addition for 9 years. I am 19 years old and still struggle with it today. My mom and dad divorced when i was 9 years old. My mother was verbally and mentally abusive. She made me feel like i wasn’t good enough. At the age of 13, I started my addiction to self harm. I wasn’t proud of doing self harm by no means. At the age of 18 i decided to flee home and go search who i wanted to be…but throughout the journey I kept getting bash and shamed by many people. This caused me to try and commit suicide. I felt alone….I felt like no one cared…I felt as if I didn’t wanna exist. Tonight was the worst night…it was the night i realized i don’t have enough family as if i wished i did. My older brother, the one i looked up to the most bashed me within the two states I’ve lived in. I have felt like giving up…I don’t know what to do anymore…..
My Story
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