My speech does fail me constantly
My thoughts are not lyrical genius
But musical nonsense
I fail at every cross road
What is my deliverance
Where will I find it
That peace that everyone else brags about
They mock me with their smiles.
As if they didn’t know I was unhappy
I was alone.
They use witty conversation
As if they didn’t know
I don’t have the energy
To participate.
Where is my soul?
Where has she gone?
Why can’t love find me anymore?
I’m so detached
The people I live with
Know nothing about me, internally
I’m tired, I’m diseased.
I’m ruthless, I’m mean.
I’ll read this in a day
And erase it all away
Cause even I know
My words are worthless.
OOOOOOOOOO
If only I had not taken that road.
If only I had figured it out sooner.
MMMMMMMMM
I know it’s my fault
But I wish I had someone else to put my blame on.
What is the meaning of she
Am I just a part of he
Does my woman intuition
Derive itself from man’s
Forget my inspiration
Am I just feeling hormonal
As I’m told, as a woman
I am the weakest vessel
Does my opinion mean nothing
Did god design it that way
Am I fighting a predetermined battle
Or am I living truly day to day
Does my voice touch those ears
In heaven, the man who cares
Or am I simply garbage
To be given to the wolves
I look out my window
To say I am not defeated
To the ghost I am taught
Is my creator?
Forget open spaces
Airplanes and space flight
The glory is in a man whom can’t show his face to the light
Where will the truth come from
Will it be scary when he presides over the land
Or will his grace be his strongest hand
Love, I do not see it
I do not see its consequence
I do believe it does not exist
Am I a heretic?
Hate, though, I see it every day
I feel it even inside of myself
It grows with pain
And pain owns this world
It’s really all it knows
Pain, sorrow, deprivation
Even the wealthy can’t ignore it
Even the righteous
You know they feel it
You even feel they deserve it
Jealousy, greed
It’s our very own personal worst enemy
I kill for a taste of popularity
I’d do anything for someone to notice me
The cruelty, my heart must be dead
To give place to this evil thing of the mind
The sin rules more than just the dead
Darkness is fear
Light is retribution, light is power
We can not overcome our senses
You foolish Christians
