I think that in mood – there should be one that says "sick". I really do not feel very well at the moment. I have the flush going on – the one that they say may equate to the lupus "butterfly rash". I am starting to think the lupus thing might be possible on top of the Cowden's thing. But what kind of luck do I have – two major diagnosises? So am sure hoping that I am just sick.

I went to therapy today – and I was told I had my schedule for the wrong day. It's ok. I actually feel pretty good anyway – but a little introspection is still called for I think. I told her I've been writing. And I told her that I feel at least a little better.

But I do think that a big step forward will happen when I start feeling better on a day-to-day level. (I hope). I feel like I don't have a lot of energy to put toward working on me when all is said and done. But here I am.

So what to think about today… Choosing Happy.

How does one go about doing this? I am talking to a friend via text and she is not happy right now. So – as I am texting her – I choose happy. I got her off of my problems and now she is talking about hers. That is probably a positive step.

Choose happy… I am going to see my mom on Wednesday – come back Thursday after lunch. I think it's going to be a lot more stress than it is worth – but choosing happy. Good food. Hugs from my niece and nephews… Car ride with my babies.

Choosing happy… my stomach is killing me right now. So – lunch is coming up quickly. What should I do? Interesting question there.