The man that I have been in love with for the past 18 years is using drugs once again, I have a 15 year old dauhter, and we have a 12 year old son. They are my life, my ex pretty much has raised my daughter when he was around. She loves him more then her own father which she sees every other week, but the toll of someone using has put a large rift between them as well as his son and myself. He left the house about 5 weeks ago, and as each week passes we may see him once a week and each week he looses more weight, and just looks as if he's getting further away from us. He chooses to hang around people who I have come to find out are using, which he has been around for the past 3 months when our problems started. He stopped coming hime after work, would show up 3 or 4 hours later sometimes longer and be completely drunk, and after looking back his mood and yelling I relize it wasn't just the drinking. I have never seen him this bad in this way, it was a everyday Monday thru Thursday thing and sometimes Fridays. The weekend he was at home and a different person. Each time he goes back to drug use he stays away from us, which I guess is good but he gets worse because he's around them everyday and night. I just don't know what to I have so much to say but no one to talk too. When he's clean he's a really good person, but I have two kids to think about. But at the same time I can't give up on him, I'm truly the only one he has. His mom turns her head to the whole issue as if nothing is wrong with him, just like she's done with her other sons who's been on crack for 18 years more on then off. Please help I feel like I have failed him and have failed my kids,