Today was an absolutely crazy day at work. I woke up so late this morning, and so my sense of time was completely off. I got to work late… Just got there in time to jump on the bus to pick up my student. For safety reasons, he needs someone to travel with him on the bus. He gets on the bus, and is in his obsessive compulsive mode; every seatbelt had better be off the floor, or he is going to have a meltdown. I ensure him that there are no seatbelts touching the floor. We arrive at school. It takes him 20 minutes to get his boots off. e finally gets all of his winter clothes off. We head over to the place where he has breakfast. He cannot stay in his seat. He keeps jumping up to open the fridge, or adjust the wires in the back of the fridge. Eventually I warn him; if he gets out of his seat again, breakfast is finished. He gets out of his seat, again. I pack up his breakfast. There is an assembly. He hates assemblies, but agrees to sit for a small time. He lets me know when he cannot sit anymore, and we leave. He quickly reaches up and turns the lights off in the gym as we go. I take him back to the classroom. I let him finish his breakfast in the empty classroom. I feel like crying. I look at the time. It is only 9:30 am… It is going to be a long day.
The day went on like this. I feel so ugly & fat right now, I feel like everyone is looking at me & thinking I am disgusting. I feel like they are thinking I don’t know how to do my job when my student has an off day. I feel frustrated with my student, but at the same time, I feel upset with myself for not understanding him better.