The tears feel foreign coming down my face but nothing else feels right, I’ve done denial, I’ve done anger. It’s time for the tears. I’ve lost so many people in my life and I’ve never let myself cry for them, I’ve never let myself feel the loss of the people I love. Today it’s caught up with me, the depression. I haven’t stopped crying all day I woke up crying and since then the tears haven’t stopped. I don’t want to feel it, I can’t feel it because so many other people still are and I need to be there for them but the tears won’t stop, I can’t make them stop and I’m afraid they never will. The pain hasn’t stopped why would the tear I can barely hold them back long enough to type this.