Isn’t it amazing how some people can hurt you and be so oblivious they’ve done anything wrong. This is one of my less severe problems but still one that has turned my world upside down. I was supposed to have a party when my book came out nothing huge just 10 people. 2 couldn’t make it and no one else showed up. These people were my family and they didn’t show up. Not a word no explanation even ignoring my messages when I asked who was on their way. I sat there at a public restaurant with wait staff looking at this huge table with people expected to show up. I was embarrassed and heart broken. I had take so much crap for choosing a career as an author one of aunts suggested (actually enforced) I should be a nail technician and maybe write my books. Maybe write the books that saved my life when I hit bottom and pretty much the only reason I survived. I took a lot of crap from a lot of people on whether I was even capable of doing what I wanted. At some point they assumed I was giving up when I was actually working past my limit. Crashing working two jobs and finishing a manuscript. When the book finally came out I was the happiest I had ever been, what a cosmic joke that was. It was almost two weeks ago when I got a baby shower invite from one of my cousins that was supposed to come to my book party. She sent it like everything was fine and we were as close as we were before. As if we haven’t spoken in 7 months and she’s blocked from all my social media. All I want is for them to experience what I did I want their world turned upside down and stop trusting people. I want them to feel as shitty as I do everyday and struggle to do the most menial task. I want them to have a taste of what they’re so oblivious to realize they did to me.