Today, my older sister and I got into a fight. I was joking around about the High School finals and how maybe I’d skip it (I wasn’t actually planning on it) and she started yelling at me. Basically, she told me I’d fail in life and she’d be more successful than me, and then, I don’t really remember why, she took my phone. When I lunged to grab it back, she snatched it and held it out of my reach until I physically grabbed her arm and took it back. Then, I was really spiraling and getting angry, and I told her to not come crying back to me when she ends up alone. I didn’t mean it, it was the moment and it was wrong of me, and she told me that I was the one who no one liked and called me a b****. When I told her that it hurt me, she laughed in my face. Mom came home and sent her up to her room, but now I’m spiraling and wondering if I should just kill myself and wondering if I’m good enough and thinking that I’ll fail and end up alone and die and wondering if I should just quicken the job WHAT SHOULD I DO????