As you will well know from my blog, I am having HUGE relationship issues with my special lady – & to be honest, once the relationship has had the "seed of poison" planted, I’m not even sure if it CAN be rescued, or if I even want it to be? I’m just really confused.
But the problem remains – I still love her very much & would be so incredibly lost & lonely without her in my life. She is "usually" a wonderful person loke none I have ever known before, but there are times when she is almost like a stranger. I have even at times thought she may have some sort of undiagnosed "dissociative disorder" because when she has been behaving like the "other" person & has said & done some very hurtful & inconsiderate things – a day or two later (sometimes even hours later) she doesn’t even remember – or at least says she doesn’t?
But here’s the thing – I strongly believe she is going through the "Big M" – actually I KNOW she is! But her case is slightly different – many years ago she had a ‘partial hysterectomy’ (womb, etc. removed but NOT ovaries). As a result, although she has not had monthly "lady time" for many years, her hormones remained fully functional.
I have been doing a ton of internet research on the matter to try & understand what it must be like for her – what she must be going through & invariably (& I KNOW this sounds selfish) but what she is putting me & US through in the process.
I was hoping there may be some ladies out there (gents to that may have gone through this with your other half) that would be able to share what emotions & thoughts you experience when hormones are "out of balance"