I’m really struggling rn. I think my ptsd is triggering because of the 2 dates coming up. I’m really not doing well about it. Last night I had one on the phone with my bf and I felt so bad because he needed to go eat and I didn’t want him to go cause I knew it was gonna happen so he stayed with me till after it and after I calmed down. My make-up ran and he told me I was still beautiful and that it was all gonna be ok.. I’m really happy to have him but I do feel bad that he has to deal with me and my attacks. I’m really hoping that I start to get better.

Thanks for listening to me ramble….