She's been a good friend…and she liked me, and I liked her…we had been talking almost every day… we were good for each other, helping each other deal with our various forms of inner demons…but I haven't heard from her in the last couple of days, and she hasn't responded to any of my messages…how did I scare this one away?…What did I do this time?….Did she tire of my telling her about my depression-related woes?…Was it something I said to her last time we were in touch with each other?…I have other theories, but won't go into them right now….All I know is that if I scared her away, it sucks….I have a history of doing this, though…..In the last few years, I've scared away friends who couldn't deal with me being too open about my depression/anxiety attack-related issues…I once scared away a VERY DEAR friend–perhaps my best friend at the time– many years ago, because, well, in a nutshell, I believe it was because I ended up falling in love with her, among other things, and needless to say, the feeling wasn't mutual…..however, that story has turned out better for me: Her and I reconnected via Facebook after being out of touch with each other for over 10 years, and now we are good friends again, so I am happy about that…but the ones I have lost, the ones I have scared away, well…I know I should just accept it and move on, but I hate losing friends….I think it's because I'm just an overly-sentimental person, and I hate losing people that have been good friends and have been important to me….Some people disappear from our lives and just aren't meant to come back into our lives, I guess, but I obviously have a hard time accepting that.; If this particular friend is gone, that won't be any different…
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Taking A Turn For The Worse
thebadkitty, , Depression, Depression, PTSD, Relationships, 0
I woke up hating myself this a.m. I had a dream about Charlie, listening to that damn recording, and...
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Something to thinkabout
downey491, , Depression, 0
I've been feeling pretty thankful these past few days for my life and everything I have in it. Its...
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Boys
deidrexx, , Depression, Depression, Obesity, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 0
I like having boys (men, but I call them boys) interested in me, who doesn't like that kind of...
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My Knee
sadjac, , Depression, 0
My knee has been playing up alot recently. I’m not sure if have wrote about it, so I think...
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Time
mindseye, , Depression, Anger, Parenting, Personality Disorder, Sleep Disorders, 0
Why do I feel so fucking exhausted at this moment? I got pretty good amount of sleep last night…....
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POOL!
sadviolinist, , Depression, Sleep Disorders, 1
Isn't it strange how your memory works so poorly when you're having a hard time? I know what we...
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Not Understanding
Di, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Grief, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
Its 2:00 a.m. and mom's still up so I can't sleep because the tv's blaring and all I want...
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None
zephrael, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Stress, 0
How do you tell your partner that your mood has been bad enough that you kind of stopped brushing...
I am sorry to hear, Gomizzou. You may not have lost this last person. People leave the site, take a break, for some down alone time and return. Try visualizing a positive outcome..
Thank you for being able to relate Eden..