Today was a sad day. My great Aunt passed away and her funeral was today. It was so nice to see relatives that I have not seen in a great while, but it the situation was difficult and sad. The eulague was nice. He compared her to an eagle soaring away onto her new life with God. She might be out of site but she is in a beautiful new place that we can only imagine.
My thoughts and prayers are with other members of DT who are suffering much more than I am today. My depression has been holding on tightly and sometimes I think that I am living in hell, but then I read about other members who are also suffering and no longer feel that there could be a light at the end of the tunnel and I know that I am not alone. I hate that other's are suffering too.
Depression scares me to death. I am always afraid of hurting others while I feel like I am dying inside. I am unsure of the correct "technique" to use to cope with my depression. I have been wondering if I should just go off my meds and see if it makes a difference. I take so much medication for so many things that I feel like I am a pharmacy. But I know better than to do anything to hurt those who are close to me and still are a part of my life.
I am reaching out to God and reading a lot of prayer requests and praying for others. I know God is carrying me or I would not still be here. He has been carrying me for a while now. One day the darkness will lift. I just pray it will be soon for someone…
I wouldn't do anything about my meds, except bag them up the next time you go to the doctor and ask for a medicine assessment.
As for dealing with the depression, itself; I've developed the habit of writing down my thoughts and feelings. If I feel like I am being overwhelmed by it all; I continue to write until the negative energy subsidies. This helps me from feeling that I am continuously awash in emotions that are sweeping me away. I also do deep breathing exercises; since we tend to be shallow breathers when wrestling with emotional turmoil. There's more; but this is a start.
Thank you so much for the ideas. Sometimes I just need to be reminded! Actually it is more like I need to be reminded a lot! Hope you have a beautfiul day! God Bless!