A couple months ago I decided to get tested for HIV and HEP C, my results came back HIV positive and HEP C negative, my boyfriend at the time and still is to this day is the one that gave me the HIV,he used to be really big into meth and sharing needles and all that,we used to use a condom but one day all the condoms we used broke,then he kind of pressured me into not using them at all,at first i resisted then I had a F**k it attitude and thought well ifI have anything I have it now. Before I ever got tested he never told me he kinda figured he had something,he also refused to get tested he never wanted to know his status knowing he probably had HIV cause of the fact of sharing needles. Now I dont know if I should be angry at him,I find myself feeling like he was being selfish because he refused to get tested but yet wanted to have unprotected sex with me(to be closer to me as he says)I dont know if I have the right to be sore at him or not,cause it was my choice also to let him pressure me into not using protection,I just thought i could trust him. was he being selfish and only thinking of himself?

After telling him that he gave me HIV he decided to get tested so I wasnt alone in this.he has both HIV and HEP C.I know HEP C is harder to get through intercourse,I know its transmitted from blood to blood and all that,but im still scared to get that also,I dont need anything more. but he still refuses to use protection and I'm scared to ask him to. I just need an outsiders opinion on my situation,I dont really have anyone to talk to about all this,my mother passed almost a year ago,and my dad doesnt really talk to me anymore after knowing my status and im an only child. I feel so alone with no one to talk to,and its not like I can talk to my boyfriend about whats going on in my head,hes always in denial about everything.

help?

-daisy

6 Comments
  1. daisy1992 8 years ago

    thnx Kaliber! I just wanted to know if I had the right to think he was selfish? does that make any sense? lol. I've been showing alot of bitterness towords him lately cause its been on my mind too much. It's not like I can tell him why i've been acting the way I have cause then that would hurt him and cause problems I want to avoid. thnx much though! it helps me a great deal!

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  2. aidaverdi 8 years ago

    Hi girl , I know how you feel, my ex boyfriend is a heroine user, I'm not, I found out I was HIV + on 2009, I told him right away, he admitted that he has hepatitis C, i I don't have it, but he's still saying that he's HIV – , I really think I got it from him, he may be afraid of knowing the true, but the button line is that I have to learn to live with it, and I wouldn't have unprotected sex if I was you, take care of yourself, you don't want to make things worst…

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  3. sagitaire 8 years ago

    no no no you have to use protection you dont want to be re-infected

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  4. benz 8 years ago

     The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.  Yes, help others; but help yourself too.  If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.

    We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us.  We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past.  But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.  Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.

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  5. ErinM 8 years ago

     I'm here when you need to talk. I'm sorry that he did that. The guy I was with for only a few months gave it to me. I understand. I hope you get through this rough patch of your life and come out of it a stronger, smarter woman. I know I did. I'm still going through the rough patch. I may die in it. But I'm living better now than I ever had before. Pray for me and I'll pray for you.

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  6. daisy1992 8 years ago

    thnx guys soooo much! your responces are a very big help!!! thnx for opening my eyes!

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