so its been a while since ive been on here but ive been working non stop and in my free time ive been trying to have as much fun as possible!! I promised myself this summer i wouldnt let my anxiety and stress prevent me from having fun i mean thats what summers all about right?? and i dont regret any of it im glad ive pushed myself to get out there and have fun with my friends and so far its been a great summer. But i still work full time mon thru friday i was working 2 jobs 6 days a week had to stop that it was getting a lil bit much but somethings been on my mind and i think its the reason i cant sleep to well these past few nights and to be honest its not the first time it really always comes back and puts me into one of those depressed moods. Im 22 years old and i know thats young but i feel like i should have more in my life like accomplished so much more this summer of pushing myself to get out more has made me see everything ive been missing. it feels like i have nothing to well i guess my exsitance idk thats how i feel like i should be in colledge trying to do great things with my life but im not and why is that?? i have no clue i feel like i make excuses or one thing after another prevents me from starting anything and see right there sounds like a excuse to me idk but yes so im up right now cant go to sleep have to work at 7:30 it should be a fun day tomorrow and i always feel super anxious when i dont get my rest blahhhhh!!!
well thanks for listen n well reading <3 u all!