So another normal case of full anxiety before bed, I have training at work starting at 8 am ( It is now 10pm my time). I have the zopiclone sitting beside me ready to go, ive already wrote about 7 minutes into my own personal journal and apparently I have more to vent. Has anyone had success with CBT, am I gonna suffer for the rest of my life? People keep talking about \”Changing your negative thoughts\”, how does one do that? I fricken hate bedtime, only when I have something to do the next day to I dread how much. little sleep I will get. I see so many people on here with similar issues and everyone uses it as a venting tool, I haven\'t seen much solid advice. I have GAD so I pre-worry about EVERYTHING. I had a spell of insomnia for like 2 weeks, 6 years ago and now I always worry about when I will fall asleep, how much sleep I will get etc etc… HOW THE F DO I CHANGE MY THOUGHTS?? I want to get this right when Im still young. On top of it, I was so irresponsible this week, that I forgot to refill my citalopram and now my psych\'s secretary hasn\'t been answering the past couple days..which is not normal for them :s Im so literally wound up right now about not getting to sleep, losing my job because I missed training and losing my place that I\'m not helping myself in the first place! Maybe I should literally continue typing until I run out of crap to say….. How do peiople go 20-25 years with this crap..Ive had 6 and i\'ve had enough.. I love life and Im so fortunate by how many amazing people I have in mine and yet I live day to day scared that I may screw up and my life could change over my anxiety…it\'s bloody ridiculous. I may have to give up coffee or something, keep a tighter eye on what Im doing in the, as something is messing me up at night! anyone have any ideas on how to wind down, or some sites with soothing sleep sounds or anything at this point?!!