First off, my mood is determined and not giving a flying f… yea that words innapropriate but, this is what i posted on a group page about my ocd for a therapy group i belong to but this is what i said:so, yesterday nothing felt right, but i ignored it, and had a good, confused, but good time anyway. and its not ok, at all, im scared as hell of losing my gf to my mind but guess what? its ok because it doesnt have to be ok, i can go insane and its ok becase this fucker is no longer living my life for me, and thats why im listening to music anyway right now. hell yea. so im scared my gf will never feel right again for the third time, um, we just got over this stupid head. so it felt right on thanksgiving. so my ocd goes, what if it only feels right on holidays. well, what if dinosaurs still exist and theyre invisible and dont eat us so we dont know they exist. maan shut the fuck up ocd really you can ruin this for me and make me feel like everythings over but as i feel liek im bleeding out ill take a step forward till the illusion fades because i never rlly was bleeding it just felt real to me. illusions suck. so i dont know if itll be ok but ik i no longer give a fuck, at least not today, lets go >:)when i want to do something, if i put my mind to it, im so godamn stubborn theres no way it doesnt happen. so if i put my energy into just going and ignoring every singlee thing that makes me suffer and bleed, metaphorically for the bleeding, idk what the result will be but i can keep it up till i die, i got mules looking like people pleasers, thats how stubborn i am