Suboxone tastes like crap. I hate taking this dang strip every day. I can go all day without thinking about pills or being addicted, which technically means that I may not be addicted anymore, but I realize as I start to get sick that I need to take my crappy orange strip of Suboxone to make me feel better that I am still dependent, which sucks. I don’t know though. I don’t know if I was off Suboxone that the first time I had a craving for pills that I just would not pick up the phone and dial the man. That’s the part of this whole thing that scares me. Also weaning off Suboxone scares me. I don’t want to get sick and I do not want to go through withdrawal’s. Has anyone ever done this, what’s it like? Was it easy? Did you relapse after you came off it?

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  1. alanoriley 12 years ago

    Hey, Hey, Whoa, Mrscgoff:   No worries, or no need to worry so much.  Though I have never been a big proponent of suboxone (subs) maintenance I do believe the benefits far exceed the alternative.  One of the benefits is the prescribing doctor had to be specifically trained and certified before they could ever write a prescription for subs.  For the patient this means they should have a specific plan for titrating down and off the medicine with little discomfort.  At this point there is no need to rush it, when you are ready, talk with your doctor and express to him your concerns.  It is important that he knows you want understand the process.  The more knowledgeable you are about the process the more comfortable you will be with it.
    Before any of this happens you must be stable in your recovery and have a viable support system.   I must suggest you get involved in AA or NA in your area.  Meet some people face to face that have gone through the exact same tribulations.  They are there, I promise you.  What’s scarier, going to a few meetings or going back on drugs and letting your children down?  You will have cravings, every addict does, even after years of recovery, but now you can deal with them.  Don’t forget where you were, the pain you felt.  Do you want to go through all the bullsh^t again.  Don’t start “weaning” until you know what to do when your brain tries to trick you into “dialing the man.”
    Yeah they sure do taste like crap, but shouldn’t they?  If they tasted like your favorite ice cream you’d never want to quit taking them.   Really I just think it was a good idea they made ‘em so nasty. 
    You must understand there IS NO CURE FOR addiction.  You may not be in active addiction but once an addict always an addict.  The moment you take any form of an opiate you will certainly start right back where you left off.  I cannot emphasize this enough.  You have come so far.  Further then you even realize.  Recovery is progress, not perfection.  The obstacle you face with your dependency on subs is because subs are an opiate, actually a very strong opiate.  The only difference is the formulation does not lend to the euphoria you felt with the pain killers you were abusing.  As I wrote above, with a good solid plan you can be free of your dependency on subs, be free of active addiction and grow in recovery.  It takes work but your worst day sober will always be better than your best day using.  I personally have never taken subs beyond the 4-5 day detox but I know many addicts who have.  Some have failed and some have had great success.
    I apologize this is so lengthy, but you and your family deserve success.  Be prepared and no matter what DON’T PICK UP.
    God Bless you and your family.

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  2. mrscgoff 12 years ago

     

    Please no apologies for your long post. I find your writing very eloquent and calming.   It seems like you have been at this a while now.  I can use all the advice I can get, the only person that I have at this point in time to talk to in my therapist.  He’s a good guy, he is a recovering addict as well.  No one else in my life really wants to hear about it anymore.  In the beginning of my recovery it was ok to talk about but that is just old news to my friends and family any more.   I thought about going to NA but with 2 kids and weekly therapy sessions there is not really too much more “me” time that I can take.  This is a good place to get all these feeling and thoughts out of my head and on to paper.  I do think that I am a bit more stable than I come across on paper but who knows maybe I am not.  As other have pointed out I do need to be a bit more positive in my recovery and quite being such a wet blanket about the whole thing.  I have noticed that I have started to turn my recovery in to a bit of a pity party because no one is there to talk to about this all, so once again I appreciate you reading my post and replying.  It feels good to know that someone out there cares.

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  3. jjrocksarizona 12 years ago

    once and addict always an addict. we can never be cured. the mintue you think you are cured your back out there doing the same old stuff. stop listening to your brain and listen to what your heart tells you to do……..

     

    Hugs,

    JJ

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