I dont think I am getting better. With all the meds im on and the drs i seem to be getting worse. I have no intention of trying to lose weight that i promised myself i would do. I look at my son and think "he is mine" "your a mom" and he is 9 and i still have not taken it in. I dont know who i am or what i want to do with my life. I am going to be thirty this year and im nothing. I dont want to here anyones advice. No one knows whats in my head what struggle goes on. I dont want to leave my house i dont want to leave my bed. I cant think of a reason to do so. Yes i know my son needs my but he doesnt need a messed up mother. He has already started with aniexty —–look what i have done to him. He watches me take 6 pills every day to end up like this. pretending to be someone im not i cant keep up the fake fisad. there is no one to help me. i have no friends if i wanted to take about something i have to blog or journal cause i have no friends that is sad …… closests friends are my dogs. I wake up every morning with stomach ache and headache. I have run out of hopes and dreams. I can not sit and watch a tv show and not think about my pathetic life. I live thru tv wishing some of those shows could be my life. I believe sleeping is the best part of life. I do not see life getting better …..i am lost..
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Long time since i wrote…
underestimated, , Depression, Anger, Depression, Relationships, Self Esteem, Sex Therapy, Suicide, 0
woah! i havnt written in a longggggg time! update would be this: i was hospitalized for cutting and depression...
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My blood feels hot.
MissSomniareAude, , Depression, Anger, 3
I haven't cut myself in about 6 months now. Last time I did it was out of rage. I...
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Empty
Greenland1, , Depression, Addiction, Career, Depression, Relationships, 1
my friend got back from his education so we´ve been playing alot spend time together for the past week...
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Big week – part 5
uberbobolink, , Depression, Addiction, Depression, Parenting, Psychosis, Questions, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, Therapist, 2
It’s been a long time since I’ve been in an emergency ward so I can’t quite say whether it...
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Deep Revelations
JustJack, , Depression, 0
The past few days have been a blur. I've been dealing with some seriously heavy duty revelations. I found out...
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Random Questions
usaporkchops, , Depression, Career, Questions, Religion, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 0
Random Do you have any pets? A strong willed male Tabby cat What color shirt are you wearing? Grey...
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My First Blog
copperpaw, , Depression, Depression, Sleep Disorders, 1
First off id like to say that Chained_Down is alright if anyone was worried for her. This is the...
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Depression/ pitty pary
zarinna, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, 0
I’m kind of venting here. I’m starting to fill with anxiety & Depression. My mom is comin back...
WOW..AS I was reading that it sounded like it was coming from my own head. except that i do not have a child and instead of dogs its my cats..my cats were looking at me with somuch compassion in their eyes as their mommy cut herself for the first time. stupid as it may sound, i think they, and only they stopped me from pressing a little bit harder of the razor. thank god for them
yes i thank god for my son and my dogs … when he is in school they are all i have when i am thinking about hurting myself my yorkie always knows it amazes me …. not to mention pet are reliable and dont give shitty advice