I don't know where to start. I have been depressed for so long. Was on medication for a while until I lost my job and benefits…Things started going downhill about 6 years ago.

I was happily married, and then boom the bottom fell out. He had gone out of the country to visit his parents. He was driving a vehicle and they were involved in an accident. He was the only one not injured. His dad was pronounced dead at the scene, his brother had head injuries and mom broke her arm. He was there a while when he came back he was never the same–even though it was not his fault he blamed himself. He felt like he had to go back to help the family. I let him go what was I to do if he stayed he would eventually hate me for it so even as much as I loved him I let him go.

After leaving I lost the house, had to move, file Chapter 13, eventually file for a divorce…I made it through all of it and we are still friends. So I thought if I survived that I can make it through anything. HA

Now I was laid off from my job last year, decided ok I would go back to school made it through school graduated….Now here I sit can't find a job…I can't even express the number of resumes and apps I have sent in..Things are getting bad I have no income at all as unemployment ran out in March..On the verge of having to leave where I am staying with no idea where to go..I have no family where I am now. Each day I am more depressed. I don't know where to go or what to do. I am at a loss….I cry, cry and cry somemore.