Well life just sucks major ass right now.

As if everything wasn't already bad before. Now our money issues are getting worse as well. My bank account is practically empty after fast food and walmart runs for a month. Somehow about $70 dollars went missing from it, and I can't figure out how.

And we need to pay our electricity bill in 3 days, it'll be around $160. Holy crap.

My sister's account is practically empty as well. Even with her job, she doesn't get paid much.

Neither one of us want to ask our parents for money. I've always had problems asking for money, whether it's $100 or $1. So I can't make myself do it. And my sister feels like we depend too much on our parents for everything, so she doesn't want to do it. We need money for food and our bills.

My sister recenently spoke of pulling $20 out of her account. I don't know what she did with it, but she's definitely not offering to buy anything.

And we could've had more money right now if my idiot sister didn't spend our special fund on multiple 4 hour trips worth of gas for her idiot guy WHO NEVER GAVE HER ANY GAS MONEY, OR BOTHERED TO REPAY US FOR THE FOOD WE BOUGHT BUT HE ATE.

And on top of that, our parents are working right now, so even if I found the courage to ask them for anything, they wouldn't be able to do anything about it for hours.

I haven't eaten anything all day. It doesn't even bother me much anymore. I just know that by tonight, we'll be starving, and there really won't be much we can do about it. Well, not me anyways.

To be completely honest, after my sister kept telling me she needs money so she can leave soon, I haven't trusted what she's been saying about her money..

–For all I know, she has quite a few dollars on her right now, but she just doesn't want to use it.

AND

–I gave her my credit card to go pick up some breakfast a couple of days ago. I've been trying to keep track of my money, so I asked her how much it was. She said $10 even. Mighty funny she can't seem to find the reciept.. Either she paid for his food with my money and doesn't want to get caught, or she took money out of my account for herself. It definitely wasn't my parents because know that my mom has a job things have been a little easier for them. Yes I'm accusing her of taking my money. She's done it before.

But even all of that isn't enough for me to deal with..

Now my parents are mad at my sister because she seems so distant and they're getting sick of it. I can understand growing up and apart from your parents, but that stuff never happens within a couple of days or weeks. Normally it's within months and years. She's trying to hard to do it and she's not doing well to hide it.

BUT WAIT, the fact that they're mad at her is somehow my fault. She's pissed at me for some reason and she's acting like I've done something wrong. All I've done was cover for her, even after all the bullshit she put me through.

SO BECAUSE OF THAT, she thinks it's perfectly fine to be an asshole to me, and so I said she has nerve to do that, all she said was whatever.

Like it's my fault you completely ruined your life! I tried to help, you never listened, I don't deserve getting blamed for something I had nothing to do with, and being treated like that.

BUT OF COURSE, I just have to deal with it.

No amount of prayers, phone calls, or begging changes anything.

I'm having a hard time believing this was all "in God's plan". Because if so, that's not cool. To put someone through all this without even the slightest ounce of belief that something will get better.

That's pure torture.