Last night was one of the worst nights ever. I was planning on killing myself last night, but I failed and went crazy and then fell asleep.
Just imagine Screaming and panicking in a nightmare but not waking up. your stuck in chains and you have no escape not even waking up. I was stuck in my dream.
I was just Screaming and trying to get out but as I said I was stuck in chains, watching all the people I cared about get tortured in front of me. I told the person to kill me right there and the person ignored me and then put a gag on me.
It was one of the worst times I have ever had. It was so real, I felt all the pain that was in there. ever single time I struggled in my chains I got zapped with electricity. I felt all the pain it felt so real.
Then I freaked out so much when the person there got hold of the person I love and the person Tortured him in front of me and it was so bad cause I was screaming and struggling so much. I just wanted to get out and die.
When I woke up, I just couldn’t process anything. I wanted to die.
Note: Don’t say I know how you feel, and DON’T SAY ITS MY HORMONES.
I’m really sorry that you went through all that, it sounds awful. Nightmares can sometimes manifest our worst fears when we’re already in a terrible state, which only makes things worse. I don’t understand how you’re feeling, but I have struggled with suicidal thoughts for most of my life and I want to say that even if you can’t believe it right now, I believe that the world is a better place with you in it, and I’m so glad that you’re still with us. Things are hard right now but you will get through this, I believe in you.