These days I feel like I’m constantly battling anxiety and fear that ill have a full on panic attack. I’m making myself physically sick. I just cant seem to get out of this mind set. Just when I think I’ve over come my anxiety it comes back. I am afraid of turning to anti-depressants for fear that they might make me even more depressed or cause major mood swings. I’d like to know what helps you with your anxiety? I have never seeked professional help, but Im at the point where idk who else to turn to. Everyday I just want to cry. Everyday I feel like I don’t belong here. I just want to feel normal. I want to be at ease.Why is that so hard? I want to sleep. I want to wake up and feel good. I know that there is a lot to be thankful for. I do try to be grateful and focus on the positive. I’ve been battling anxiety my whole life. Yes, I remember being a toddler and dealing with it. At this point, its a miracle that Im still here. I dont have any friends where I live now. I dont have much of life other than work, school, and my awesome boyfriend. However, I know I need friends at this point because my boyfriend can’t always be there. I can tell he’s getting frustrated with me. I think. Of course, I have extreme relationship anxiety too. I don’t know how to fix this. I can ‘t have any good relationships. Im constantly over thinking. Regardless of how busy i try to keep myself I can’t help it. No matter how busy i keep myself or how active I am, I always find a way to over think.

I fear that I can soon end up in a dark place.