Oh Me. Oh My.
Life is and has been a struggle. I have lost everything, even myself. I have lost myself trying to please everyone else. I’m working till 1- 2 in the morning. I’m at the point where I’m done. I’ve cut. I’ve tried dying. I act like I’m fine but I’m not. take a butterfly for example, if you leave it isolated in a jar with no air, it dies. I’m isolated. I go to school and go home. Lately I’ve been coming home and I cry, and cry and cry. I have lost my self. my faith, my hope. I smile and inside I’m like ” why are you faking it”? my story is a long one and I guess, its still unraveling to this very day. I am an Only child. What am I supposed to do? I have no one to turn to. I just need someone to talk to. I listen, I really do. I have multiple things going on. I’m 17 going to be 18 in about 4 months now. They say, your supposed to know what you want by then, I don’t even know, what I want to do. I’m scared, terrified and just the thought of being ALONE again, it gives me serious anxiety. I’m just asking for a friend. someone to talk to. If you happen to like me, tell me. If you don’t like me, tell me. If you want to talk to me, Message me. If I give you a piece of my heart, don’t make me regret giving it to you. I have gotten hurt more giving it away freely than ever giving it someone who never stays.