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Scared
LonelyFemaleForever, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Sleep Disorders, 0
Its 1:15 am. Cant sleep. I decided i will change from college course, still the same school but something...
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Always something positive in everything
BaleFire, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Career, Child, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Parenting, Relationships, Stress, 1
I had a relatively good day. I was able to clean the house, get some things done that I...
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Free Writing
TheLifeOfJade, , Anxiety, Child, Depression, Therapy, Weight Loss, 0
Every birthday comes around and here I sit in the same place I was the year before. Always depressed...
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I'm back. i guess
MorphineCanBeFun, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Career, Child, Depression, Grief, Medication, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, Therapist, Therapy, Weight Loss, 1
Hey. I'm back. First, I'd like to apologize for whatever I subjected you to reading when I was 14....
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Blooming Together
sosgirl, , Depression, Depression, 1
In a field of gorgeous flowers, a flower is pollinated. A seed is released, and carried away through the...
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Fiance's Trust
pixieflower, , Depression, Child, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 1
I am at my wits fucking end I'll tell ya that. I am full of fury and i want...
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Stuck
brighterthansunshine, , Depression, Depression, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, Therapist, 1
wel this is my first time doing anything like this.. i feel kinda pathetic complaining online to whoever will...
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CARING TOO MUCH FOR THE WRONG THING
Softangel777, , Depression, Divorce, Relationships, Religion, Sexual Abuse, Therapy, 0
Which is greater in God’s eyes: the marriage or the people of the marriage? A harmonous marriage between a...
sometimes you have to stop and smell the roses. You don’t want to be running so hard you trip over your own feet.
I guess what I mean by that is that it’s time for you to unravel. you have a counsellor who is there to tease apart this tangled ball of wool that is your history and your soul. don’t throw the future into the mix as well! Yanno? š Just keep this simple, take your life as it comes and give yourself the next six months or more (took me longer than that and one visit a week is definitely helpful) to detangle your history and your past.
What I found with therapy was that things would happen in the now that would upset me, and trigger things from my past. Which we would then talk about and uncover new angles. my counsellor was absolutely amazing, and was happy to take the world from a position of me being a human being, with problems and a history; not me being a case study.
He could come up with reasons and ideas I had never thought about, which allowed my triggers and little hidden mines to defuse and disappear. He cleared my emotional minefield. Well, I did most of the work… I was committed to clearing it myself, so that my future could begin.
I don’t think your future can really begin till you’ve put your past to bed. So don’t worry about the future. When you are all clean and clear you will be able to start having positive, interested, brave views on what you would like to do with it. But right now any plans you make will probably be distorted by the pain you are in.
xx. all the best! You go girl. You’re doing great. š
Good advice and perspective from the other comments. I would add: volunteer somewhere. You get purpose in helping others. No matter how small or how insignificant it may seem, it is important to someone. The smallest acts of kindness go a long way. (Help someone put their groceries in their car). Even if you only volunteer once a month it will help you. Good luck on your journey. I know ho hard it is to start out with a new provider. Glad you got past the intake person and stuck with it.
To figure out a path for the future, it all starts with figuring out who you are in terms of your core personality, preferences (likes and dislikes), strengths, undeveloped talents, and weaknesses.
You mentioned that “The dreams that I had before turned out not to be the correct path for me” and “I feel like I forgot how and like Iām losing sight of who I am”, which shows that you have some sense of who you are. Pursue this line of inquiry into who you are as far as possible until you feel completely clear about yourself.
Once you have that all figured out, figuring out a path is relatively straightforward. I found that the best path is one that aligns the closest with who you are, uses all of your strengths/talents, and doesn’t require any of your weaknesses. The path should be an expression of who you are. If it’s the right path then the process of simply walking that path will give you happiness, not you’ll be happy only once you reach the destination.