Never count on other people; other people let you down. Talking a big game and not following through is something that I have been seeinga lot of lately. Saying the words you know I want to hear, thinking that it will make me feel better, when in reality- it just makes me feel worse. Empty words followed by empty promises only leads to more heartbreak. Don't make promises you can't keep, and don't expect people to continue to be there every time those promises fall through.

I also learned how to distinguish the difference between family and relatives. Family are the people who are there for you no matter what. The people who consistenly have your back, and who are there not only when they need you, but also when you need them. Family doesn't mean there has to be a blood relation. It means there is a strong bond, and a strong relationship that cannot be weathered or broken by insignificant things. Relatives on the other hand are those people who are there when it is convenient for them to be there- which is usually only when they need you. Relatives are the distant relationships formed between people. Distance is the key. Relatives care about their own needs being met and care lttle about the needs of others. When they need someone to talk to, they come to you- knowing you will drop everything to listen and be there, but the moment you need them they are gone; disappearing into the nothingness of the world until the next time they need something from you. It's utterly disgusting, actually.

I have come to the conclusion that I have no real family, just distant relatives. I have no one to turn to, no one to talk to, and no one that cares enough to ask.

It's a sad day.