I don’t know where to start. I broke up with my boyfriend 3 months ago, I moved 4 hours away to stay with a ‘friend’ . She practically begged me to move here and now treats me like a POS. I moved down here for a fresh start and have gotten literally nothing achieved. Now I’m moving again, this time to my Aunts (who I don’t know) and my friend seems pissed because I told her Monday and it got pushed to Wednesday. She offered me a ride and I told her I would just wait on my Aunt. She has not talked to me since. I sit in the living room alone, while her and her boyfriend sit in their room whenever they’re home. I just got out of a 5 year relationship and have no one to talk to. At this point, I don’t even want to keep trying. I just want everything to be over. I hate me, I hate looking in the mirror. I don’t know how long I can keep doing this. I fucking hate myself. I had a job, but I got laid off for the season. I’m 24 and don’t have a license or a car. I don’t have any friends. Just the ones I live with. But I learned quickly that she is not my friend. I don’t know why she had me move in with her if she was only going to turn around and treat me like I’m such a big burden on her. I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take sitting by myself and hearing them giggle for hours while I sit alone and think about all my fucking mistakes. I’m a fuck up, and that’s all I’ll ever be.
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i’m so sorry you feel this way. I wish I had the right things to say to make you feel better, but unfortunately I can’t think of anything.
I hope things will get better soon for you