I began feeling down so I forced myself to be active. I've been playing Just Dance 2 for about 10 minutes and I'm dripping sweat. I need to be more active, I need to fight this. I sit around almost all day, I put off my work, I don't do anything productive, I just waste nearly all my time every day. What really made it sting is finding out that this guy I sort of have a crush on has a girlfriend.

Now, I know I'm taken and my boyfriend knew I had a crush on him, too. He didn't care. It was just nice to feel a rush of girly excitement upon seeing him. But when I found out that he has a girlfriend, I was crushed…not because he was taken but because I was, yet again, faced with the fact that I am overweight, inactive, and depressing. They are both cute and lighthearted, active, and have friends. I'm cute – when I put a little effort into my appearance – depressed, inactive, and a loner. Nearly the total opposite of what they are – and what I wish I were.

This type of person dominates my major. They are everywhere. The model who went to a private school (cost $15,000 a year), the overachiever who is snobby and self-centered (also went to a $15,000 a year high school), the jabberbox that talks about herself nonstop (yet another private school baby), etc.. And there I am…the cyber school graduate suffering from depression, crippling insecurity, and the inability to set normal standards for herself. It just stung…seeing them happy and holding each other…looking at my imperfect life, my imperfect body, my mean personality, my boyfriend's imperfect life and depression, etc.. I feel like I'm going down a dark path…dating the depressed guy who can't even go out in public without panicking while I'm just a loser.