Boy what a whirl wind it has been lately!! i mean i have been fighting the urge to want to DIE because i miss my fiance SO much.. it has been almost 3 months now since i kicked him out for cheating on me with a 16 year old… i know right!!! 28 years old.. what would he want with a 16 year old anyway? but anyways.. after kicking him out the very DAY i caught him emailing her… i have not spoke to him nor do i ever want to again, gone forever… i wish he never even exsisted honestly .. i would like to live in a world that he doesnt exsist in. Its difficult thinking he works 1 mile away from my house and wondering if hes going to come bother me or mess with my car or whatever.. I know he wont- he hasnt… after 3 months im pretty sure he got the hint to FUCK OFF… excuse my language.
I have been seriously getting my best friend time on.. with kyle and jessica… thats the only time i forget just for a minute that my world was turned upside down just a few months ago.
I ache that i didnt see this coming… one minute i was purchasing our honeymoon in tennessee for a week stay and making flower arangments for the booked chapell the next minute im living alone in our house crying with a broken heart…. just by a snapp of a finger it was all gone… the dream, the love, the wish, the hope- just gone-
now i take everyday as a blessing and hope that one day soon i will be healed enough to love again. but honestly i feel back to normal some days and other days i feel i dont want to get out of bed ever again.- go figure.
hey im open to positive comments if you cared enough to read this blog..lol
— as far as some negative comments keep them to yourself because i have enough of that for myself. thanks.