I have no one here that knows how to deal with anxiety. I started to get upset so I wanted to take a drive on the back roads for a few mins maybe stop the panic thats about to hit. But of course my parents don't understand me at all so they take my keys which freaks me out even more to think i'm a prisoner in my own fcking house. So here comes the panic attack I was hoping to avoid all thanks to my mom. SoI chunked my wallet and threw the gate opener and she grabs me and starts pushing me over shit which knocks over my new lamp that someone very special gave to me and broke the mofo and knocks over a full ashtray right in my fcking room. I told her if she didn't get the fck backI was gonna hit her. She said she was just trying to get me under control. ANYBODY W ANXIETY KNOWS THAT MAKES SHIT 100 TIMES WORSE. ThenI walked out the door and headed down the street on foot. Our neighbors were outside and I didn't want them to know what was going on soI just sat down in the road. Then she comes looking for me and basicallymakes shit worse. Then I get screamed at and pills forced down my throat that I dont wanna take. So i'm crying histerically and she starts screaming at me to calm down already so they can go to bed. This place is a fucking nightmare when it comes to anxiety and panic because no one I know around here has this shit and knows where I'm coming from. All they do is make things worse and I have no body and no where else to go. I just don't know what to do or who to go to. For anybody who read this far I really appreciate it.
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I think, mothers are just like that. My mother like saying shit that makes me feel worse too. I\'m lucky that I don\'t get pills stuffed down my throat, if anything I think she might think its a bit shameful to let people know that I\'m taking medication for anxiety.
What I\'ve learnt? Ignore and just try your best to live and cope the way you know how. Its all we can do really.
Hope things get better soon aye
Why not tell the bad things in life to f*k off , and think alittle more positively 🙂
If I could say fuck the bad things do you think I would be on this fucking anxiety web site genius???????
I am sorry you have anxiety. I have it bad too and am on meds. My mom and I never had eye to eye relationship and never got along. She always talks crap about me to everyone, always has. She has told me I was a mistake, she told me to live with my aunt, but she somehow stays in my life just to screw me up and keep me on edge. I moved away and she still causes me problems, mental abuse for years and it sucks. I understand you. I have had so many panic attacks and hen I had no idea what they were I was taken to the emergency room. I agree, pills are the docs options, they help some but I still have it. Hope you feel better, I thought many of times I was going to just kill myself and get rid of all this but I am glad I didn\'t for my kids. Talk to me if you need someone. I wont offer you meds.
I dont know what your current financial situation is but you might want to move from your parents house. I currently rent a room for 500 bucs a month. I could be saving all that money plus more including food and laundry if i move back in with my parents. Everytime i look at my empty room it is tempting but as soon as i see my mother complaining and yelling at my sisters kids aswell as mines when they come over it reminds me the hell im avoiding by not living there. You should try to take the meds if they work so you can balance yourself out a bit through this rough time. It seems you have alot of anger in you and might want to address that first before you can try to manage your anxiety. Hope this helps. feel free to message with your profanity if you need to let it out lol.