I've never writen a blog an not sure how to. So I'll just start by telling my story. January 3 2011 was the begining of the end for my normal happy life. While getting my kids ready for bed we had a massive electrical power serge. Tvs and all appliances started popping and blowing up. Smoke filled the house almost before I got the kids out. We was able to save a lot of our belongings but not the house so we were forced into my parents for a few wks when things got worse. January 26 2011 my grandmother passed away at the age of 88. We had spent days at the hospital just trying to spend every last minute we could with her. January 27 2011 my mother fell with a massive stroke in our kitchen. My mother was my best friend. We did everything together. It took almost 2 hours for ems to get there. Trying to perform cpr and stay calm wasnt working. We spent days in icu with her on life support till the time come to make the decision to turn it off. I wasnt able to stay in the room while she passed and I live with that regret everyday. April 2011 we lost another family member. My brother in laws mom passef away in her home. So my family took another hard blow. September 22 2011 my brother in law falls with a massie stroke just as my mother in our home. The event was like deja vu. October 10 2011 I recieve a call that my father in law was found dead in his apartment. That was the day I broke. All memories and events had finally caught up to me. I was no longer able to control my emotions after that day. That was the year that ended my life. I feel as though I maybe never be able to get the sounds of screaming and sirens out of my head!
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I can imagine how much anxiety these times have caused you. Everybody has a breaking point and it sounds like you stayed together for longer than most people would be able to. Sorry to hear about all of your recent losses. Hopefully things will get better for you!
Just to let you know, you did an excellent job writing your first blog. All you have to do for a blog is write about what is in your head. Good job!
Thank you so much. Im just having such a hard time understanding the anxiety. I dont understand that if Im causing it then why can I stop it. Im juzt hoping to a way to live with it. Im just now getting to really look around this site so maybe Ill figure out everything on my page and get it all completed.