So i got a call from my son’s principal this evening. I had called her over the weekend and expressed to her that I was not comfortable in the decision that was made to make my son go to pre-school. We talk and I expressed my concerns and how upset I was about them throwing my son out. They say they didn’t but that’s exaclty what they did. So to make a long story short he will be returning to his regular class and will be watched and worked with. I am very leary and anxious about it. I know the teacher is going to be pissed to have to deal with my son but tough shit. I’m sure he is not the first or the last to have behavioral problems. The principal said it was not their only concern but the teacher was very clear that it was. She apologized if that the impression that I got because it should never have been said in that manner. Well la dee da! She didn’t mean it. Like hell she didn’t. So now my anxiety is on overdrive again. I just don’t know what is going to happen.

My husband is still not being of any help which just has me at my wits end. If this get worse for my son in school I will be forced to take action. My husband talks about how much he loves his son and how he doesn’t want to see him hurt and how he will never tell him no…. I am going to be forced to leave him. I just can’t deal with him any longer. He doesn’t want to go to counseling with me and just refuses to help me rein in this kid. I’m at my wits end. Idk what to do anymore. My kids are more important to me than he is and I refuse to let him screw these kids up anymore than they already have been. He is selfish and just doens’t care about anything. He throws it in my face that my lil one is like this because of me. Yeah it may be true to a certain extent but at least I have taught him alot of things that he is needing in school right now. Ny depression has taken over me and I have not been able to be the mom I need to be for my boys, but damn it I try my best. My husband just gets home and doesn’t want to hear or deal with anything.

I’m just so drained. I have tried to make this marriage work but I just can’t do it anymore. I just need to suck it up for now though, seeing as I don’t have a job and no where to go. I am giving my husband till the end of this school year which is June. If things don’t get any better and he keeps refusing to go to counseling then I’m gone. BY then I hopefully should have a job. (I hope anyways :S) So we’ll see…. Phew! I just had to vent.