ok…so i'm bored….and i'm restless….i know i'm down cause i feel the current in me but i'm not bad or suicidal or anything….there are things i need to do and i dont want to do them….and the responsibility bug keeps biting me in the ass and because i dont want to listen that kinda has me down too….like being part of the human race and being adult means doing the things you dont want to do and i know all that but it still just makes me want to backhand the first person who reminds me…i guess what i am is blahh….yup…thats about the best way to describe it…im sure there are more technical terms but does any word really ring more true then blahh? BLAHH….cmon and say it with me….blahhhhhh….yeah….sucks dont it….its more then not wanting to go to the post office or the hardware store or do the chores at home that need to be done….its life…its deep…its to the bone….does anyone else feel that? like even if you do everything that needs to be done you know you havent shaken it….the worst part is…well at least for me…i dont know what i want to do…not really…i dont know what i need to shake this…i have a few ideas but they are just shots in the dark…i dont have the answer…sometimes being blahh is worse then being depressed or even suicidal…cause those feelings are definite…they are set in stone…there is no mistake about where your head is at…but being blahh….you are just flappin in the breeze….not sure about how to feel…and wherever the wind takes you may not be where you want to end up…yeah ok i know this is long as hell and not going anywhere but i warned you at the beginning so dont get your thong in a knot…sorry…i'm just restless as hell and feel like jumping out of my skin…for those who have read down to here i give you major props…you have proven you have what it takes to follow thru unlike the others who gave up 10 lines ago…remind them of this constantly….
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