Well, Im sitting here with alot of thoughts running through my head, It all started in 2006 when i lost my papa, he was wonderful, he meant the world to me. alot of emotions, hurt, anger, sadness, and regret. Question were going through my head, Lord, why? Why, did he have to go? Why, couldnt u just let me say goodbye. Now its to late, he will never know that i loved and cared for him. in jan 2007 i found out i was pregnant, i went to the grave yard regularly, to visit my papa, i would sit and cry and talk to him. tell him how much i missed him and wished he was here to see her in oct 2007 i had my oldest daughter on his birthday. My papa came to me when i brought her home, to let me know that he was okay, and everything in my life will be okay, he told me my daughter was beautiful and for me not to worry about anything. in 2009 i went through a rough divorce. more depression set in, then came the custody battle. more depression set in. in dec 2009 i met a man who i thought was amazing and could give me what i wanted in life, maybe i found love again, in feb 2010 i found out i was yet again pregnant. everything changed, he started cheating, i found out he had a wife who was incarcerated, i was called bad things, treated wrong. was controlled, we argued all the time but yet, couldnt get away. until june 2010 he messed around with the wrong girl, found out he was a reg. sex offender, he moved in with her, she called the cops a year later june 2011 hes gone, sent off to prison with a 7 month old child, left for me to raise, me 24 years old with two kids, no job (because he didnt want me to work) living with his grandmother. (nothing was ever good enough). more depression set in, i mean all this depression and no one to talk to. i cryed my self to sleep many many many nights over everything, thinking it would be better to go ahead and just leave the earth then i think about my kids, my 7 month old at the time. she lost her dad, she cant lose her mom too, then i thought about my 3 year old at the time, she will lose her sister and her mom, i cant do that to her. so i go one with my life, hate mail came in from babies dad, all though i stayed with him until march of 2012 (yes this year) i made him give me a good reason to leave, hate mail came, more and more til this day i still get it. yesterday (8/20/2012) i get a letter stating im a "bad mom" so of course i cry, how can the father of your child tell u that ur a bad mom, knowing i have one child already if u think im a bad mom then why did you get me pregnant? i am now a single parent, i have choosen to go to a phycologist, to get help. so any of the parents, single, married, divorced, or anyone if u feel this way depressed and often think about killing your self please so get help, there is help out there and you can find someone to talk to…..