IN MY 23 YR RELATIONSHIP HE'S BEEN SOOO VERBAL ABUSEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I CONTINUT TO PUT UP WITH IT. SOME OF THE THINGS HE SAYS CUT TO THE SOLE OF MY BEING.  HE'S A PERSON WHO IS "ALWAYS" RIGHT AND HAS ALL THE ANSWERS.  HE'S CRITICAL OF HOW I HAVE RAISED MY CHILDREN BUT WALKED OUT ON 5 OF HIS.  I LOVE HIM OR DO I??? AM I JUST AFRAID OF BEING ALONE IS IT THE FINANCIAL HELP.  SOME DAYS HE'S MORE LIKE A BROTHER THAN A PARTNER.  I WISH I COULD HIT BACK WITH SOME CLEVER "VERBAL STUFF" OF MY OWN, BUT MY ANGER OVERFLOW'S AND WE END UP IN ME SEEMING TO BE OUT OF CONTROL AND HIM SEEMING TO BE IN CONTROL AND RIGHT.  HE HAS SUCH A WAY OF MIND FUCKING EVERY CONVERSATION TO WHERE HE COMES OUT RIGHT.  WTF??  WHY AM I PUTTING UP WITH THIS SHIT….AM I THAT DESPRATE?  AM I THE IDIOT HE SAY'S I AM?  WHEN HE TOLD ME I DISCUSTED HIM I WANTED TO TELL HIM TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE.  (I OWN THE HOUSE WE LIVE IN – HE PAYS THE BILLS).  AND TO TOP IT OFF THE CONVERSATION STARTED ABOUT MY DAUGHTER THAT I AM HAVING TROUBLE WITH, AND HE ALREADY KNOW'S HOW THAT ALONE IS HURTING ME IN MY HEART.  I NEED SOME FUCKING INPUT BEFORE I GO NUTS!!!!!  ABOUT 6 MONTHS AGO I CAME HOME FROM WORK AND HE HAD CLEARED OUT LOCK STOCK AND BARREL, WITH OUT A WORD.  WE STARTED TALKING AGAIN ( I MADE THE FIRST CALL) AND NOW HE'S BACK AND THE SAME SHIT IS STARTING ALL OVER AGAIN.  RIGHT NOW I REALY CAN'T AFFORD FOR HIM TO MOVE BECAUSE I AM IN THE TANK MONEY WISE.  (BECAUSE I LOANED HIM $30,000.00 LAST YEAR)  i REALIZE NOW I WILL NEVER SEE THAT, BUT IT'S NOT REALY ABOUT THE MONEY, WHY DOES HE DELIGHT IN HURTING ME?  ANYONE????  THIS IS CRAZY, MAYBE I AM CRAZY.