IN MY 23 YR RELATIONSHIP HE'S BEEN SOOO VERBAL ABUSEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I CONTINUT TO PUT UP WITH IT. SOME OF THE THINGS HE SAYS CUT TO THE SOLE OF MY BEING. HE'S A PERSON WHO IS "ALWAYS" RIGHT AND HAS ALL THE ANSWERS. HE'S CRITICAL OF HOW I HAVE RAISED MY CHILDREN BUT WALKED OUT ON 5 OF HIS. I LOVE HIM OR DO I??? AM I JUST AFRAID OF BEING ALONE IS IT THE FINANCIAL HELP. SOME DAYS HE'S MORE LIKE A BROTHER THAN A PARTNER. I WISH I COULD HIT BACK WITH SOME CLEVER "VERBAL STUFF" OF MY OWN, BUT MY ANGER OVERFLOW'S AND WE END UP IN ME SEEMING TO BE OUT OF CONTROL AND HIM SEEMING TO BE IN CONTROL AND RIGHT. HE HAS SUCH A WAY OF MIND FUCKING EVERY CONVERSATION TO WHERE HE COMES OUT RIGHT. WTF?? WHY AM I PUTTING UP WITH THIS SHIT….AM I THAT DESPRATE? AM I THE IDIOT HE SAY'S I AM? WHEN HE TOLD ME I DISCUSTED HIM I WANTED TO TELL HIM TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE. (I OWN THE HOUSE WE LIVE IN – HE PAYS THE BILLS). AND TO TOP IT OFF THE CONVERSATION STARTED ABOUT MY DAUGHTER THAT I AM HAVING TROUBLE WITH, AND HE ALREADY KNOW'S HOW THAT ALONE IS HURTING ME IN MY HEART. I NEED SOME FUCKING INPUT BEFORE I GO NUTS!!!!! ABOUT 6 MONTHS AGO I CAME HOME FROM WORK AND HE HAD CLEARED OUT LOCK STOCK AND BARREL, WITH OUT A WORD. WE STARTED TALKING AGAIN ( I MADE THE FIRST CALL) AND NOW HE'S BACK AND THE SAME SHIT IS STARTING ALL OVER AGAIN. RIGHT NOW I REALY CAN'T AFFORD FOR HIM TO MOVE BECAUSE I AM IN THE TANK MONEY WISE. (BECAUSE I LOANED HIM $30,000.00 LAST YEAR) i REALIZE NOW I WILL NEVER SEE THAT, BUT IT'S NOT REALY ABOUT THE MONEY, WHY DOES HE DELIGHT IN HURTING ME? ANYONE???? THIS IS CRAZY, MAYBE I AM CRAZY.
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Entry #5…Looking Up!?
operabruin, , OCD, OCD, Therapist, 0
this will be the last "numbered" entry, as I see no point in "numbering" them…( I have enough OCD...
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Title for the sake of titles.
Vic, , OCD, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, Questions, Relationships, Therapist, 1
i’ve been feeling pretty beat up lately. the things that are helping me get through the day are the...
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Can Someone Tell me what to do with my life?
Jessealuvseashells, , OCD, Anxiety, Art Therapy, Career, Child, Depression, Medication, Therapy, 1
Well everyone, again, I'm sure you're all shocked that I'm not writing a blog about how I think my...
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No One Ever Said Life Would Be Easy
MadHatter9, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, Teens, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, OCD, Personality Disorder, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, Therapist, 2
So, if I’m being honest, there’s not much inspirational about me. For as long as I can remember I’ve...
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Back by popular demand??? :P Joking. Here ya go!
Misconceptions, , OCD, Anxiety, Therapist, Therapy, 0
First off, I AM FREEZING. I have a cold, had a hard time freezing, and I've JUST noticed that...
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Back and with another label!
jenna_six, , OCD, Anxiety, Bipolar, Career, Depression, OCD, Relationships, Therapist, Therapy, 2
Hey friends, long time no talk. I've had some recent stuff come up which landed me in an intensive...
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cannot keep standing still
delane1, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Marriage & Family, OCD, Anxiety, Questions, Therapist, 2
Lingering in a land of uncertainty, Questioning even the slightest of movements. Continue to worry about what other people...
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Ocd and roommates
snottbubble, , OCD, Medication, 2
i feel like i'm going crazy. i'm currently 8 months pregnant, so i can't take my medication. i've been...
he sounds very controling, being with somone because you feel you need too is never gonna lead to happiness.. but if you think you can salvage something try relationship councling.. otherwise cut your losses and tell him to get out!