Is there anyone out there? I mean, really, are there people out there who are looking for real friends, people to write to on a regular basis, people to confide in and who will confide in you? The internet is the only way I have to make friends, and you would think that a site full of people with SA would be populated by people nearly as isolated as myself, who are looking for the same thing. Friendship through email is better than nothing at all, I've experienced both so I know what I'm saying.
As long as we're on the subject, why is it that there is no one with SA in the general seattle area? At least, no one who wants to talk to me. I've met more people from Alabama, or Minnesota, or Connecticut, than from Washington state. As an adult, I've never had a friend I could meet with in person and hang out with. SA means that I'm more likely to draw contempt and derision from people in person than possible friends. But everyone online who does seem to want to get to know me live literally on the other side of the country, and even they are few and far between.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm complaining about. I'm just too tired of being alone, too tired of waking up everyday to a struggle with no one to help me or struggle with me. Too many days, I think I'd be better off dead. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes I wish I was. I just don't want to be alone forever, and the way things are going it really looks like there's nothing to do about it. I'd be better off dead.