Is there anyone out there?  I mean, really, are there people out there who are looking for real friends, people to write to on a regular basis, people to confide in and who will confide in you?  The internet is the only way I have to make friends, and you would think that a site full of people with SA would be populated by people nearly as isolated as myself, who are looking for the same thing.  Friendship through email is better than nothing at all, I've experienced both so I know what I'm saying.

As long as we're on the subject, why is it that there is no one with SA in the general seattle area?  At least, no one who wants to talk to me.  I've met more people from Alabama, or Minnesota, or Connecticut, than from Washington state.  As an adult, I've never had a friend I could meet with in person and hang out with.  SA means that I'm more likely to draw contempt and derision from people in person than possible friends.  But everyone online who does seem to want to get to know me live literally on the other side of the country, and even they are few and far between.

I'm not exactly sure what I'm complaining about.  I'm just too tired of being alone, too tired of waking up everyday to a struggle with no one to help me or struggle with me.  Too many days, I think I'd be better off dead.  I'm not suicidal, but sometimes I wish I was.  I just don't want to be alone forever, and the way things are going it really looks like there's nothing to do about it.  I'd be better off dead.

 

3 Comments
  1. daisycourt86 12 years ago

    hey there, i understand the lonely feeling. even when i have friends around im lonely cause they dont fully understand me. but u will find people with time and it will get better. im not suicidally either but i know what u mean. u are worth something to someone and u wont be alone forever. Have faith and believe in yourself : )

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  2. maggie 12 years ago

    Your not alone, especially here.

    I am from Seattle and there are plenty of people that suffer from SA that live there. I know there are some support groups there as well. That is a good way to get to know people who have the same issues that you do.

    Just because someone is far away does not mean you can not have a long and lasting relationship with them. I met someone very special online. He lives in Canada and I lived in Seattle at the time. After a couple of years we met and another year or so after that we got married. He suffers from SA and I was the one who relocated. It does happen.

    There is always hope so never give up. Your certainly not better off dead.

    Hang in there.

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  3. Serenityhope 12 years ago

    I'm here….I remember that you and I wrote to each other a litte bit a few months ago.  I live in Washington too, although the other side of the state.  If you want to strike the friendship back up, add me to your friends (I deleted my old account and started a new one a few months back).  You're definitely not the only lonely one on here, a lot of us are.  Kudos to you for having the courage to say it, and look at all the responses you've gotten!

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