I found this site while looking around online for a discussion board on Seasonal Affective Disorder. I feel that this may be the problem behind many other problems in my life right now. I have always disliked Winter, but now I am starting to think there is more to it than that. In the summer, I wake up early every day, and regardless of how many hours of sleep I get, I feel refreshed. In the summer I don’t have trouble falling asleep. In the summer, I go jogging for 6 Km’s almost every day, I eat healthy, and I eat when I am hungry. I lose weight. In the summer, I do not turn to food as a means to deal with my problems. I can cope with anything in the summer, I want to be out socializing in the summer. I LOVE MYSELF IN THE SUMMER, and the world seems like a good place.
When the days get shorter & shorter, I change. I start retreating to my room, I don’t want to talk to anyone. I start craving things like cookies and chocolate, and I cannot control the cravings. I eat when no one is looking because I am ashamed of myself. I am feeling constantly overwhelmed, like I can’t get control of my life. I feel like crying all the time. I gain weight. I feel like everyone hates me.
I am at a loss of what to do. I want to get back to feeling happy again, but I don’t know where to start. I have been to the doctor several times, for physical symptoms (I didn’t get my period for over 3 months, there was a thyroid problem that seems to have corrected itself, and I had an upset stomach) each time I tell him that I have been feeling really sad lately. But he overlooks this for the physical symptoms. I feel uncomfortable coming out and telling him that I think I have some sort of depression. I am afraid he will tell me that I am just complaining.
For now, I am sitting back, waiting for the sun & for the longer days. If there is anyone else out there who is coping with SAD better than I am right now, I would really love some advice.