So my boyfriend for almost 10 months not just moved to some city that starts with a W. It's not THAT far away but it's pretty far away. I know that he's going to come and see me every chance he gets but still. Like he moved Wednsday and he's coming back for 3 days on Monday to see me. I'm still sad. I've known for a while that he was moving. It really hit me though on Wednsday. I cried. A lot. And the thing is I gave up tears a long time ago. I hate crying. It makes me feel weak. Although when we were saying our goodbyes (for like 40 minutes) I saw him crying. He's not the type to cry either. I had been holding back my tears but seeing him cry told me that that was a little stupid. All it took was that first tear to travel down my cheek to get me started. He left to go to pack and I didn't stop crying for another 40 minutes.

No one is supportive. Everyone I know is telling me that this relationship will end and that there is nothing I can do about it. I'm only 15. He's 17. No one ever wanted us to even start the relationship. We've already been through a lot these pasted 10 months and then he tells me that he's moving. When I ask people what they think they tell me that long distance relationships don't work. My sister was the only one to be some what supportive saying that one of her long distance relationships have worked. It just gets me down when people say things like that. Why can't they lie to me or something?

I don't know if my boyfriend is the one that I'm going to grow old with. I don't know a lot of things. I am only 15. Although I know how he makes me feel. I know that he distracts me from everything that's gone wrong in my life so I can enjoy the rest of my life. I know that he makes me smile. I know that he makes me laugh. I don't me faking a laugh either. I mean full out laugh that my heart can feel and jumps for joy every time. I know how he looks at me. I know how I look at him. I know when he's around I forget about everything. It's just me and him. I know when he'sjust simply standing by me,I can barely breathe. People tell me when you find someone that can make you do all these wonderful things and make you feel wonderful, that you should hold on to them. That you should do everything you can to stay with them. So despite everything that people say, I'm going to fight for him. I'm not ready to lose him just yet, if ever. I'm sick and tired of listening to people on how to run my life. This is one thing that I'm going to do for myself.

*Real Smile*