I put a letter in on Friday to my boss to change my duties and to assign me in a different position with less stress.  This position would cut my pay in half.  I am soooooo scared if I stay where I am I will end up in a hospital.  I can not take the stress anymore and I need an out.  Of course he tried to talk me out of it and asked me to pray about it and wait until Monday, which I told him I would do.  I am working under someone, (not who I turned my letter into) who screams, curses and is so rude.  He is only part of the problem he has made me doubt the whole profession I have been in for over fourteen years.  Being in law enforcement I see so much ugly and I am tired.  I want the nice stuff.  I am scared if I stay, I am scared if I go.  I feel trapped.  I like working with people.  I need to take a break.  If I tell anyone in my town, like my own psychiatrist how desparate I feel I am afraid that she will have them take my badge and gun from me.  I wear a gun belt everday.  The stress has effected ever part of me.  I have a pinched nerve in my back, migraines, and an ulcer and high blood presser which just started this year.  I want to be happy again but I am afraid of all the time I put in towards a retirement.  I am sorry this is another rant.  I needed to write this.  Monday is going to be another rough day so you will probably see me on here again.  Thank you my OCD friends.