Hey guys. I was looking around in a drawer and I found something I wrote:

13/Aug/08

Please, don't let me fall.

I need you.

But I don't deserve you.

Take my hands,

I want to be free.

It's killing me.

Slowly, but painfully.

I can't take it.

You are my only hope,

You are my Savior, my Lord.

I'm giving up.

I need you right now.

But I'm so scared.

I don't want to go back

to the way it was.

It's painful to remember that.

But I'm so scared of the future.

and have faith,

but I feel like that's not for me,

because I don't deserve You.

I don't deserve anything.

Because I don't know

what I'm doing here.

Because I don't know 

my purpose.

I feel guilty.

I'm sorry.

And I don't know

what to do with myself.

It's calling me.

But I can't fall 

into its game.

I don't want to

go back to that.

and it's now a painful reminder

of my mistakes.

Please, God.

Help me keep living.

I don't know how much

I can keep up.

Give me strength,

'Cuz I will need it.

Ps: Link to the song I was listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dmohr-knqXE

I think you should open it in a new window. 

God bless you.