I went to therapy expecting to learn cbt on how to deal with intrusive thoughts and to learn how to cope with the anxiety caused by them. But the therapist keeps asking me about my childhood. She says that she sees a connection between events frommy past and what I'm going through now. There is nothing I can do about the past. Yes, I had a couple of bad things happen to me – no they weren't as bad as anything you hear on the news or as bad as what happened all the time to some people I know. I would honestly be whining if I even wrote about it now. Yeah, it was sad and scary, but there is NOTHING I can do about it now. Actually there was NOTHING I could have done then either. It was all beyond my control. So whatever. Delving into any past events or looking for defining moments is pointless – isn't it? There's nothing newto be felt about it or cried about. It's just a bad memory. Show me someone that doesn't have those. What has that got to do with these scary unwanted thoughts that pop into my head for no reason? How is remembering things going to get rid of these thoughts? How is going over the past going to stop me from checking that stove AGAAIN? All I will do is obsess over past events, trying to analyze them – going over every detail of something I didn't even understand at the time. And end up depressed about that? No thanks! I was actually asked, "Don't you trust yourself?" WHATTTT???? Really? I'll give it one more visit and if I don't see an acceptable effort on the therapist's part of trying to teach me cognitive behavior therapy, I'm not going back. I'll just do what I've always done my whole life – help myself.