I've always been picky when it comes to food, especially meat. I have this weird textural thing where if something has a texture that I don't like, I can't eat it. This is why I eat my chicken in a weird way, avoiding theoutside,and I've done this for as long as I can remember. Lately, it's been getting worse, to the point where I eat about one meal a day, and just snack during the rest of the day. I can't eat things that have funny textures in them, such as soups or other easy dorm food, so I just stick to snacks and macaroni and cheese. I don't go to the dining hall very often, but when I do, I can't eat much because I get full very quickly. I've had periods of time before where I didn't eat much because I was worried about my weight, but this is different.
I think this may have to do with stress, and I have a lot going on right now. I'm back in school, which is always my main source of anxiety. I'm having a tough time coping, especially since things were hard even before school started. My dad got into a really badmotorcycle accident almost two months ago, and he was in the hospital for almost a month. He will never be the same as he was before, and naturally, this has caused me a certain amount of distress. Adding school on top of all of this is bringing back the panic attacks that I hadn't had since starting Prozac in April. I expressed these concerns to my psychiatrist, also telling him that I was having a hard time sleeping like I was before starting Prozac. He gave me a prescription for Lorazepam (Avitan), and told me to take a small dose before bed to help me sleep, and also to take a small dose if I feel a panic attack coming on. It has been helping me sleep better,butI just feel really weird about this whole thing, and I'm not sure how to deal with it.
Don't feel weird, stress and what comes with it is a part of life. And school would definitly be a big stressor.
Since your concerned about only eating a little bit everyday, maybe try this:
Everyday try a small amount of a new food that you usually have trouble eating because of the texture. I'm not saying have a small portion, maybe even if you have a forkful or spoonfulm or half of that. If you continue this everyday, maybe you will eventually train your brain to accept the weird textures.
It's just a thought.
Hope school goes well for u!
Christina