Hmmm….had a wee bit of a set back…
Well actually more than a bit. Went a bit wierd and overwhelmed over simple tasks and completly broke down. All that crying and worrying, as usual, wore me out and i slipped into a horrible dream full of bizzare nightmares so i woke up in a pool of sweat but i felt a little bit calmer.
When i look back at the last couple of weeks i realise i have been totally losing grip on my new found happiness and saneness (if that is a word). Ive been burying my head over so many issues and I know thats the reason i’m feeling so down because i feel like such a failure. Still, at least I know how to solve it I guess. It just takes so much work to get myself to the point where I can honestly say I’m ok and its so hard to keep myself on track.
Maybe its because I’ve been put down to 20mg from 40 of citalopram – its been a couple of weeks on 20…if you’re reading this what do you think?
=Heres my story in a nutshell – a family member dies, my dperession goes up a level – thie results in me not going to any classes (im at uni), i stop washing my hair and making myself look presentable, i stop doing chores, i spend too much on junk food (resulting in alot of weight gain!) and i spend too much on material things to try and make me happy.oh and i cry at the stupidest things, i get angry all the time, i feel in constant despair and isolation. I stopped all that when i was put on citalopram 40mg and now its all come back – help!
Should i go back to 40mg?