This is my first blog, so I would like to introduce myself. My name is Ashton and I am 16 years old. By now you may have made the assumption: “Wow she is so young! What could she be on this site for?” Well that is the reason for this first blog. I would like to tell my story. So, here is goes.
Anxiety for me started at such a young age when things were simple… Well when they are supposed to be anyway. As a child, I was shy. Very shy. You could find me reading a book in school or even sometimes by myself on the playground. Little did I know this “shy” was actually the sign of something much worse; Anxiety.
At age 8 I played softball, I was getting out there a little more. Great, right? At one of my first games I hit the ball as hard as I could, I had made a home run! I began to run to first base and began limping. Later on about a month after, I was diagnosed with Ewings Sarcoma. I survived it. I am almost 8 years in remission at that.
“But what does that have to do with anxiety?”
Everything. I went through a lot of traumatic things during the times I was in and out of the hospital. I can’t go through the tunnel to get to the beach anymore without freaking out due to bad experiences with x-ray and scanning machines. I fear my next hip replacement cause I woke up during the first one. I dread the doctor just because it gives me bad flashbacks. In general this experience as a child pushed my brain to over think everything.
Not only did that push it. Bad Relationships pushed it, being stressed all the time pushed it, and Anxiety just found me to be a perfect host for it to feed on. I just seem to fear everything now because of it.