I am on the verge of tears most days. I feel so angry too. I think part of that is because my fiance is starting to act like my ex. I don't want to be a single mum with two kids with different dads (albeit 6 yrs apart) which is part of what holds me back. He is very controlling in little ways. I stand up to him , and whe nhe knows I am mad he backs down and admits he was being horrible (but when I go into how or why to stop it happening again I get 'I'm saying sorry, aren't I?!!')
He is letchy around pretty women, but wont admit it and says it is all in my head – I had an ex who was obnoxious in this respect so I am careful not to tar him with the same brush, and often doubt myself. But I am realising he plays on that, and trys to tell me I am imagining thins. I have asked that he just talk to me about looking – if he is more honest, I promise to be more understanding. he said nothing back, and if anything acts worse. I love him so much, but I wont marry this. I don't know what to do – he has been ill (he admists not as bad as me) the last two days and has been horrible to me and my daughter.
When he flexewd his muscles I used to want to mess with him in a good way. Now I know he will do that for any bit of skirt. I love him, and I hope and believe that he wont admit much because of an ex so I have told him what his mum told me. To be honest, I don't feel hopeful. But I love him so much, and I want to be a fmaily, so I have to be hopeful.