every day is hard. I could be awake for 3 hours and it feels like ive been up for months. sometimes i have no reason to be sad but i am. this really confuses me. i was with my family at a pumpkin patch a few weeks ago and i was having an amazing time. then all of a sudden i felt my mood shift. i didnt know why i felt this way and i wanted t to stop and i couldent make it stop. i had to go home because of this. i didnt want to go but i didnt want to bring everyone down with my mood. the sadness hit me like a ton of bricks and it stayed that way for a couple days after. i couldent make it stop.